…and then there was one

Our dog Maxi.
Our girl Maxi. February 28, 2001 to September 26, 2016

One week ago today we said goodbye to our dear old Maxi girl, she was almost 16 and it was the hardest decision I have ever had to make. We have had Maxi since she was a tiny pup with huge ears and a dangerously happy tail. As a pup she loved to pull washing off the line and dig up plants, destroying garden beds and leaving unseen holes in the lawn. We called her the ‘Diggingest Dog’ after one of my favourite childhood books. As an adult Maxi loved going to the beach and bouncing through the waves, she still loved digging holes, we have several still to prove it. She had a phobia of storms and refused to walk through doors or gates if she thought there was any chance of them touching her. Her snoring was loud and so was her bark, she kept many a salesperson and religious door knocker from our yard. I loved her soft fur and her friendly, happy face, she was a beautiful, sweet natured girl.

Maxi had been struggling with arthritis for a few years yet still loved her walks and always had did a happy dance at dinner time. The memory of her goofy smile and dancing feet as she impatiently waited for dinner always brings a smile to my face. Recently her struggle intensified, her evening walks reduced in number and distance until she was restricted to sniffing around in the park next door. She loved that park. Hubby and I were preparing ourselves for the inevitable however it happened sooner than we thought and it makes me sad that we did not even get a chance to take her to the beach or let her eat all of her favourite foods.

I was not ready but I don’t think you can ever be ready to make a decision that will end the life of someone you love. Maxi was in pain, she was distressed after falling and not being able to get up again, it was heartbreaking and it was time. The vet came to our house and we took Maxi outside to her favourite spot in the yard, the spot where she can see everyone coming and going. It was a beautiful day, she had some roast beef and with her head resting on my lap I said goodbye as the tears rolled down my face. I kissed her forehead and closed her eyes, it was peaceful and quiet. Maxi was gone, she was no longer in pain. I sobbed for hours.

One week later and I still can’t believe she is gone, her absence all too real when I enter the house and see her empty bed. Maxi had been with me for a good chunk of my adult life, she was with me through many ups and downs, sensing sadness and knowing just when to rest her head in sympathy on my lap. Such a beautiful, sweet natured dog, everyone who met her fell in love and she loved everyone. Bundy still looks for Maxi, he is not anxious but will seek her out and he occasionally sniffs her bed and checks for leftovers in her bowl. I do not have the heart to put her things away, it makes our house feel empty and I’m still not ready to say goodbye.

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28 thoughts on “…and then there was one

  1. colinandray October 3, 2016 / 11:31 am

    So sorry to ready our news. It sounds like you have lots of happy memories, and you should draw on those as often as you need to. I have no doubt that she would want you to remember those happy times, rather than be sad at her leaving. She is now at peace, and probably causing all sorts of playful trouble in her “new life”. Thanks so much for sharing, and be happy that you once knew a really special dog called Maxi!

    • twoblackdoggies October 5, 2016 / 10:59 am

      Thank you. I feel very lucky that we had Maxi in our lives for as long as we did, she was indeed very special and there are many wonderful memories to draw upon.

  2. colinandray October 3, 2016 / 11:32 am

    Sorry…typo … “sorry to read your news”

  3. loafandlearn October 3, 2016 / 11:35 am

    Sorry to hear this. We all know the pain will come one day, but its a small though painful and ghastly, price to pay for what you have every day before that. Bye Bye Maxi…

    • twoblackdoggies October 5, 2016 / 11:01 am

      Thank you. It is true, we get a lot of love, happiness and fierce loyalty and our dogs ask for very little in return.

  4. Cherie Basile October 3, 2016 / 2:18 pm

    Oh Sam, that is very sad news. This is one of those occasions when the ‘Like’ button is just not what you want to say. Thank you for sharing your beautiful black doggy Maxi with us. You were so very fortunate to have had each other ❤

    • twoblackdoggies October 5, 2016 / 11:03 am

      Thank you Cherie. We were very fortunate to have her in our lives for so long, she knew how to live every day to the fullest.

  5. Yuna October 3, 2016 / 2:55 pm

    Oh, honestly I don’t usually have any pet, but hearing this makes me sad. She is indeed beautiful. Hugs hugs hugs ❤

    • twoblackdoggies October 5, 2016 / 11:05 am

      Thank you. She was a beautiful girl and she lived a long and happy life.

  6. Fabulous Fur Friends October 3, 2016 / 4:36 pm

    So sorry to read about Maxi Sam, your pain is coming through the page. But what beautiful photos of her throughout her long, happy life that you can cherish forever. When I lost Ralph I cried every day for a couple of months, the pain was so real, but it does subside and then you will just be left with your happy memories. Big hugs to you all xx

    • twoblackdoggies October 5, 2016 / 11:08 am

      Thank you. As heartbroken as I am at losing her I feel somewhat better knowing that her pain is gone. We did have a wonderful life with our dear Maxi girl and I will cherish those memories.

  7. anyone4curryandotherthings October 4, 2016 / 12:09 am

    Oh Sam – I just want to reach out and give you a quiet hug and say …….nothing! Just share your sorrow and your tears. Reading about beautiful Maxi brought all the sad sad memories back to when I had to take our beloved Dachshund Hasso to the Vet to send him off to the big canine sky, just days after my first husband had died. But …..this is life – and we are fortunate to have lots of beautiful memories of our beloved ones, which nobody can ever take away from us.

    • twoblackdoggies October 5, 2016 / 11:10 am

      Thank you. So hard to lose such special members of the family, and everyone has been so wonderful and supportive. Lots of beautiful, happy and often funny memories.

  8. Emily @ Adventures of a Dog Mom October 4, 2016 / 4:20 am

    I know your pain and what the loss feels like and for that I’m sorry. Please be kind to yourself in the coming days and months. And, know that I’m thinking about you.

    • twoblackdoggies October 5, 2016 / 11:13 am

      Thank you. It has not been a good year for our much beloved dogs, too many of us have had to say goodbye recently. Thinking of you too.

  9. furbiziahs October 4, 2016 / 9:14 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss! She was so beautiful. With much love ❤

  10. Debra Kolkka October 5, 2016 / 4:25 am

    It is very sad when our animal friends die. My thoughts are with you. I still can’t part with Tallulah’s brush or bowl 6 years after she died.

    • twoblackdoggies October 5, 2016 / 11:15 am

      Thank you. There are lots of memories attached to those few items, keeping them helps keep the memories alive.

  11. suburbsandsecondbreakfast October 5, 2016 / 8:52 am

    Thank you for sharing these photos of Maxi, she was a beautiful dog.
    I’m sorry for what you’re going through, but like my dog who I also put down one week ago at age 12, they lived long happy lives.

    I hope we both mourn and remember all the happy times with our girls who are no longer with us.

    • twoblackdoggies October 5, 2016 / 11:17 am

      Thank you and I’m so sorry for your loss. We are so lucky to have them for as long as we do, they live every day to the fullest and love us unconditionally.

    • twoblackdoggies October 7, 2016 / 2:35 pm

      Thank you. It was very hard to write, but it helps to remember the good times.

  12. Ogee November 9, 2016 / 2:05 am

    A beautiful tribute to a beautiful pup. I’m so sorry for your loss. ❤

    • Two Black Dogs November 13, 2016 / 7:34 pm

      She was a beautiful girl, thank you. It breaks my heart to not have her with us anymore, but I’m so grateful that we had her for as long as we did.

      • Ogee November 14, 2016 / 10:20 am

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