“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Devil and Miss Prym

After almost two years of uncertainty at work, the inevitable restructure and change to my role has been and gone. The decision to stay or walk away was made for me as my role was declared surplus to requirements and the options available less than appealing. The emotional rollercoaster ride was intense, feelings of rejection, anger, sadness and fear flooded through me. My confidence was already suffering and this change saw it drop through the floor as I sat and wondered how on earth was I ever going to find another job. Thankfully, my family, friends and colleagues helped me see that there would be other opportunities and that ultimately I would be happier. Saying goodbye to the people I had worked alongside for many years was hard, but knowing that I will see my friends again makes it easier and hopefully, we will all be in a happier place.

So, here I sit, on my lounge at home with Bundy by my side,  and I am okay. I miss the truly wonderful people I worked with and of course the income, but this change has been a good thing for me. Taking the time to wind down and relax is doing wonders for my peace of mind and I have more time to dedicate to the things I love. It would be wonderful to find a role that will fulfil my soul and allow me to focus on my passions, or at the very least a job in an area of interest to me. In the meantime, I am setting up an art room to encourage me to paint more and developing my dog photography skills at our local shelter. Bundy seems to be enjoying the extra time he gets to spend hanging out with me and I know he loves being able to stay inside when the weather is cooler. Now that my little boy is in his senior years  I definitely love to be able to spend more time with him, making sure he is happy and comfortable.

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8 thoughts on “Change

  1. Languedoc Lady July 25, 2018 / 1:49 pm

    You are a strong and resilient woman. When I look back at the disappointments in my life, I see that they were there for a reason…and the reason has always made my life better. Take care and know that good is yet to come.

    • Two Black Dogs July 25, 2018 / 8:43 pm

      Thank you 😊 You are so right and as challenging as things seem I know that I have been fortunate to have the opportunities and experiences I have had. This is a glitch and it will all work out for the better in the end.

  2. Ogee July 25, 2018 / 2:32 pm

    The most amazing and unexpected things reveal themselves when we throw ourselves – or are thrown – into the deep end. Possibilities open that we never knew existed or thought to look at. Ride the wave with eyes and mind wide open and with faith in yourself and your resilience. It will take you to a better place.

    • Two Black Dogs July 25, 2018 / 8:46 pm

      Thank you 😊 This was definitely the push I needed and while I am still working out what to do next I am going to enjoy the spare time I now have. Who knows what could happen.

  3. restlessjo July 25, 2018 / 3:58 pm

    I’m sorry for the upheaval, Sam, but it could be so much worse. I tiptoed into this post with trepidation, fearful that life-threatening illness was afoot. I was very relieved that it was your job that was the casualty and not a loved one. I know it’s a dint in your confidence, but you never did have a moment before. Things sometimes happen for a reason, and I hope a better opportunity comes along soon. 🙂 🙂

    • Two Black Dogs July 25, 2018 / 9:00 pm

      Sorry if I gave you a fright Jo, apart from being unemployed all is well 😊 There will be other opportunities I’m sure, they may not be as financially rewarding but I’m ok with that. As far as this change goes, the worst is over and now I have time to explore other options. Thanks for the support, everyone has been so kind 😊

  4. Zebra HOW July 25, 2018 / 5:22 pm

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    • Two Black Dogs July 25, 2018 / 8:35 pm

      Thank you, I will have a look at your blog too 😊

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