“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”
― Paulo Coelho,
After almost two years of uncertainty at work, the inevitable restructure and change to my role has been and gone. The decision to stay or walk away was made for me as my role was declared surplus to requirements and the options available less than appealing. The emotional rollercoaster ride was intense, feelings of rejection, anger, sadness and fear flooded through me. My confidence was already suffering and this change saw it drop through the floor as I sat and wondered how on earth was I ever going to find another job. Thankfully, my family, friends and colleagues helped me see that there would be other opportunities and that ultimately I would be happier. Saying goodbye to the people I had worked alongside for many years was hard, but knowing that I will see my friends again makes it easier and hopefully, we will all be in a happier place.
So, here I sit, on my lounge at home with Bundy by my side, and I am okay. I miss the truly wonderful people I worked with and of course the income, but this change has been a good thing for me. Taking the time to wind down and relax is doing wonders for my peace of mind and I have more time to dedicate to the things I love. It would be wonderful to find a role that will fulfil my soul and allow me to focus on my passions, or at the very least a job in an area of interest to me. In the meantime, I am setting up an art room to encourage me to paint more and developing my dog photography skills at our local shelter. Bundy seems to be enjoying the extra time he gets to spend hanging out with me and I know he loves being able to stay inside when the weather is cooler. Now that my little boy is in his senior years I definitely love to be able to spend more time with him, making sure he is happy and comfortable.